Eventful Evening Follows Uneventful Day!

Ok so after a very uneventful yet equally lovely day two very exciting things have happened this evening. I'm therefore very happy that I no longer feel I'm old before my time in my daily outing being to the supermarket, and me actually enjoying it!

The first exciting thing to happen may be a disappointment for you to read but for me I was jumping with glee! Josh is now 16 months old and very fussy with textures. It's not taste's he struggles with but the textures of things. It's been playing on my mind more and more recently and I was working myself in to a mental panic seeing my son 18 years old and still eating cow and gate toddler meals in a posh restaurant. But despite my knowledge of the problem I've been unable to create a solution. This has been frustrating to say the least! Being the control freak I am when it comes to making the parenting decesions! My partner is utterly hopeless, this is not his field of expertese! Let me explain-my partner is an excellent daddy, he's great with Josh but he does what he's told when it comes to making decesions about how to parent Josh. He knows I know best. Either that or he just knows what's good for him! So anyway I've been working myself in to a food-orientated tizz which has meant I've gone on even longer only feeding my son the foods he will eat. It's been a cycle. Like I said it's texture not taste with Josh. You should see his face when he touches things like tomato, cucumber, carrot etc. Basically anything 'slimy' or wet and he won't even have it within an inch of his hand and he looks at it like it's something mummy stepped in, trod all through the house and then left for a month! Yup, he's not one for anything edible if it's not dry. And also bread. He won't touch sandwiches but loves toast. Very odd indeed.

So today it was time to take a new approach. For the millionth time I gave him the option of banana, nope he wasn't having any of it and would spit it out quickly if I managed to get some in his mouth. My mum told me that I used to love mashed banana so I thought I would give that a whirl or the rest of the thing was going to waste. What can I say, he ate the whole thing! He spat the odd bit out but ate everything really! I couldn't believe it, I was a very happy mummy! I made so much noise clapping and whopping and dancing away that I think I possibly frightened Josh and when his daddy came in I saw relief flood his face as if to say "Dad, the daft cow has finally gone and lost it, please remove her from my sight"! I'm so pleased but my excitement was short lived because now I'm thinking about all the other things-tomato, cucumber etc-I can't mash that up can I? So I still feel lost without a proper solution and would appreciate feedback via the comment button below! Needless to say I will bask in excitement for a little longer at this small positive step before I revent back to panic at the bigger picture!

The second thing is that I finally made a step towards persuing my dream. I've spent years working in media. I didn't plan it but I didn't know what to do when I left school and it's where I ended up. I stayed in media and quickly became and Account Manager which I really enjoyed. It's not my idea of a long term career though and I've spent years wanting to be a midwife. Things always prevented it and when I got pregnant I thought I had missed my chance to pursue my dream career. However having my son only made that bubble of aspiration much bigger. And if anything being a mum means I more than anything want a career I love in order to make it justifiable being away from Josh. So after months of prep I finally did it, I applied to go to university to be a midwife! I can't believe I've finally done it! Now it's out of my hands and up to the universities I've applied to! But I am so excited (and a little apprehensive!) that this could be the beginning of something I've wanted for a long time. Something so close to my heart. I would ultimately like to work towards being a specialist midwife who works with young mothers as for some reason ( I don't know why!) I feel called in that direction! So people of the blogging world, wish me luck-I need as much as I can get! EEK!

Love Chloe
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